wow!! idaho girl in the big city. talk about a fish out of water. and also talk about a brave girl with an adventurous heart. a heart she had forgotten.
i ventured to new york city in september. by myself. it had been thirteen years almost to the day since my first visit to new york, and i must say it was worth the wait.
it was cool.
but really. i fell in love with this darling city, it’s architecture, it’s people, it’s shops, and especially it’s edgy style. i have great respect for the city and it’s citizens. i was in awe, happily. my experience was just perfect, if such a thing is possible. i told everyone it was so cute. maybe it was the neighborhoods. maybe it was the beautiful sunshiny weather. maybe i just met the right people. as if i had nothing to do with me. as if i hadn’t attracted the whole beautiful, awesome experience. i still think that things happen to me, instead of me happening to them.
i had the great fortune to stay with an old highschool friend outside of the city, and even though he never even came to the city, i had great comfort in knowing he was nearby. my visit with him was a gift in many ways, and i cannot thank him enough. i rode the subways, i took taxis and i jumped the train to connecticut to see my friend each night. i went to MOMA. i rode a double decker. i ate in delis and on street corners. i got lost. i went to macys & bought extravagant perfume. i had pizza and bagels. i asked for directions, and people actually asked me for directions. i can’t believe i had some answers. i took about 4 photos, because they just didn’t do it justice. why bother?
my destination in new york?? a girl named Gabby Bernstein (facebook, instagram or google her for a good time!) i joined a group of 250 lightworkers from around the world at her Spirit Junkie Masterclass. i first met gabby in sun valley in 2012 at the wellness festival, and she has been a constant light presence in my life ever since. i told her when we met again in 2012 how much she had grown & changed since our first meeting. she said “i might just cry right now”. i told her because it was truly amazing to see the absolute changes & maturity in her style. i couldn’t not tell her. it had to come out of me.
in her style. absolute changes. wow. but i must realize that the changed were also in me. was i complimenting and describing her or me? probably both of us.
i own my recent growth. i deserve to, because i am the owner & instigator of it all. i fought like hell for it.
in 1999, i boarded a plane to guadalajara, mexico to take a 6-week intensive spanish language class. by myself. i didn’t really think anything of it at the time. it was just what i wanted to do. it’s been a long time since, but that brave girl was nowhere to be found. i had become afraid of my own shadow, and just as insecure. these last 2 years have been critical in my rebuilding, and i reached a pivotal moment earlier this summer, listing to a webinar in my bedroom, with my laptop & my dog. i was called to the spirit junkie class in new york. at first i fought to ignore it. and then to own it. just like i had done with my life coaching program in Ojai.
fighting like hell has made me what i am….. ((thank you!!))