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i will what i want…. and other thoughts

i read a lot.  i devour articles and ‘news’ stories, most of which does not qualify as news in any way, shape or form.  lots of propaganda.  i have been admiring bits of encouragement for women sprouting up these days.  here are 3 of my recent favorites.

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welcome to 2015.

happy new year, everyone!!!  last year, my new year’s post was one of my first on this blog.  i was still stretching my fingers and finding my blog voice.  it was scary. and here, tonight, i am ready to embark on blog year two.

tonight, on the 4th day of the new year, i find myself wanting to ask, How Was YOUR Year??  what were your highs & lows.??  did you have highs, and how high were they??  were they everything you wanted and expected??  did you wait for them to happen or did you make them happen??  have you thought about your lows??  so much of what i’ve been reading lately asks you to find beauty & answers in the hard stuff.  your lows might help you identify someone to thank for a hard lesson learned, or find room for improvement in your own life.  or maybe your lows will help you practice forgiveness.   one of the things i appreciate about the new year, is that it brings me to reflection.  i love to consider the past year- my successes and failures.  they are what make me ME!!!  i already scribbled out my blessings, highs and lows & my great accomplishments for 2014.  this process of mine helps me identify what is most important to me for 2015.   and yes, i’ve got that scribbled along somewhere as well.

i’m going to make 2015 happen for me.



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up the ante.


satchel: series I

i don’t know if i told you, but i told a good friend recently, that it’s time to up the ante.   i do consider myself an artist, but if someone were to ask, i wouldn’t know what to tell them.  i am an artist.  but what is my medium??  i know artists can have more than one, but i wanted 1.  as in, 1 definitely.  i think i should take clues from my favorite shops.  i’ve always had a crush on the paper arts.  the lighthearted ones.  the beautiful cards, prints and calendars.  oooh, the papers and the fonts.  (what kind of geek am i?)  i dream about letterpress and ink.  but then there are the fabrics.  if i could just design & sew all day, my life would be complete (insert theme music with butterflies).  

when i was rebuilding my life, i decided to openly acknowledge and embrace my creative need and allocate about 1/3 of my living space to these pursuits.  i have a beautiful studio, but the accoutrements of all my media are taking up most of the space, i barely have room to work.  i have paints, brushes, thread, stickers, a scanner, sewing machines (yes plural, i think there are 6 or 7 in my immediate family), a slide projector, needles, tacky glue, glitter, beads, cutting boards, x-acto knives, hammers, chisels, stamps and inkpads.  i can do some of most, and that might be the extent.  i want to do all of some, instead.  my first love is textiles, my second, paper.  

i finally told my friend that my sewing was moving from downright crafty to gorgeous & classy.  i upped the ante.  i am progressing from giving all my work as gifts (which is rewarding & great) to receiving gifts of my work. which is not to say i will sell it all or no longer give it away.  but i will no longer devalue myself via my work.  part of my transformation will include more & different giving of myself and my gifts, and also asking for & accepting gifts in return.  keep an eye on my etsy shop in the coming months.  i’ll also let you know when i post new items!!!

with blessings,     carla

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feel happier with gabby bernstein, spirit junkie.

my heart is full of gratitude that i’ve been able to meet this lovely lady 3 times, most recently via my big adventure to new york in september.

there are a lot of things i admire about gabby.  i love her marketing style.  i love her style.  i love her hip spirituality.  i love her commitment to beauty in life.  she is one of forbes best branded women.  she is accessible and open, via multiple mediums.  and she is just f’in fun to watch…..

in fact, there are several ladies i follow around the internet, and they seem to have the same things in common.  yes, they do have things for sale.  tangible, intangible, glittering & solemn.  but that’s not their main attraction.  or maybe it is, but they are so clever that you hardly notice.  you are so attracted to their style, that it doesn’t even occur to you that you wouldn’t want to buy what they are offering.  you may not even know what it is, but if they had anything to do with it, you are willing to try.  i guess, that you are so interested, curious & confident in them, that you are willing to consider anything associated with them.  i think i fell for these girls first, and then realized their beauty transferred to their products…..  their stories & their photos are so lovely…..  they are so brave and open and honest.  you feel like you know them.  and you definitely like them.  and you know they would love to sit down and have coffee with you.  and they would also like you very much.  there are at least 2 ladies that i am referring to, and i have thanked them both in person & via email.  for sharing their lives.  and for offering wares that are equally beautiful.

i think it takes a tremendous amount of courage for them to put themselves out there, and i applaud them silently and via email.  thanks once again.  i send you love, carla

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worth the wait.

wow!!  idaho girl in the big city.  talk about a fish out of water.  and also talk about a brave girl with an adventurous heart.   a heart she had forgotten.  

i ventured to new york city in september.  by myself.  it had been thirteen years almost to the day since my first visit to new york, and i must say it was worth the wait.  

it was cool.

but really.  i fell in love with this darling city, it’s architecture, it’s people, it’s shops, and especially it’s edgy style. i have great respect for the city and it’s citizens.  i was in awe, happily.  my experience was just perfect, if such a thing is possible.  i told everyone it was so cute.  maybe it was the neighborhoods.  maybe it was the beautiful sunshiny weather.  maybe i just met the right people.  as if i had nothing to do with me.  as if i hadn’t attracted the whole beautiful, awesome experience.  i still think that things happen to me, instead of me happening to them.  

i had the great fortune to stay with an old highschool friend outside of the city, and even though he never even came to the city, i had great comfort in knowing he was nearby.  my visit with him was a gift in many ways, and i cannot thank him enough.  i rode the subways, i took taxis and i jumped the train to connecticut to see my friend each night.  i went to MOMA.  i rode a double decker.  i ate in delis and on street corners.  i got lost.  i went to macys & bought extravagant perfume.  i had pizza and bagels.  i asked for directions, and people actually asked me for directions.  i can’t believe i had some answers.  i took about 4 photos, because they just didn’t do it justice.  why bother? 

my destination in new york??  a girl named Gabby Bernstein (facebook, instagram or google her for a good time!)  i joined a group of 250 lightworkers from around the world at her Spirit Junkie Masterclass.  i first met gabby in sun valley in 2012 at the wellness festival, and she has been a constant light presence in my life ever since.  i told her when we met again in 2012 how much she had grown & changed since our first meeting.  she said “i might just cry right now”.   i told her because it was truly amazing to see the absolute changes & maturity in her style.  i couldn’t not tell her.  it had to come out of me.  

in her style.  absolute changes.  wow.  but i must realize that the changed were also in me.  was i complimenting and describing her or me?  probably both of us.  

i own my recent growth.  i deserve to, because i am the owner & instigator of it all.  i fought like hell for it.    

in 1999, i boarded a plane to guadalajara, mexico to take a 6-week intensive spanish language class.  by myself.  i didn’t really think anything of it at the time. it was just what i wanted to do.  it’s been a long time since, but that brave girl was nowhere to be found.  i had become afraid of my own shadow, and just as insecure.   these last 2 years have been critical in my rebuilding, and i reached a pivotal moment earlier this summer, listing to a webinar in my bedroom, with my laptop & my dog.   i was called to the spirit junkie class in new york.  at first i fought to ignore it.  and then to own it.  just like i had done with my life coaching program in Ojai.  

fighting like hell has made me what i am…..  ((thank you!!))


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new reading group.


yeah.  so i’m trying to find my ‘peeps’ in pocatello.  i know you’re out there.  i cannot be the only one in our gorgeous little town that has piles and piles of great books.  unread books. i want to find like minds.  a lot of decisions about this group will be made by the group, once we meet.  but i can’t wait to hear about all the great books we come up with!!!  are you in a book group already??  what works and what doesn’t??  i can’t wait to meet you.  best, c

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i am thrilled to report i am just back from nyc with a shining, new certification and a sparkling outlook!  this trip was an eye-opener of the best kind.  i attended the spirit junkie masterclass hosted by Gabrielle Bernstein with guests Rha Goddess, Kris Carr and Lisa Leydon.  it was an honor & a privilege to be amongst them and 249 other lightworkers from around the world(!) for nearly 3 days.  wow.  talk about a girl on fire:

green spirit junkie

and, i can’t even begin to describe my trip right now, i think i’m still in shock.  i probably should get these feet back on the ground, but right now, i’m enjoying the ride….


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time away.

i had some time away recently.  i walked away from my job, my friends, my home, my dog (gasp!) and my comfort zone for a full(!) week.  it was pure bliss.  my mother, who just turned 76, rented a house on the Oregon coast for our family vacation.  i won’t bore you with the details, but that week had all the elements of a glorious time!!  i took the opportunity to create a glass float at a do-it-yourself glass shop.